Shavel

May 16, 2014 @ (Florida)

Tags: Heartbroken


I've been with this guy name Nicholas for 1 1/2 years. We met in middle school, I didn't really notice him or liked him. It all started our sophomore year of high school. I didn't even know he went to my school but anyways we end up having my favorite subject together. He was just a friend to me, nothing more, nothing less. One day my teacher sat us together and we was watching a movie. I felt this weird feeling towards him that I never felt before. I wanted to hold his hand and touch him. To me he was unattractive. Maybe because I was trying to get back with my ex at the moment and still had feelings for. We both played basketball btw. One day after my basketball game my ex told me he didn't wanna talk to me no more ect. So I decided to call Nicholas because I was lonely and wanted to talk to someone to not think about my ex. I called him and he was at a basketball game watching another school play. He went outside just to talk to me. I started flirting with him without knowing it.
The next morning I went to school and I couldn't believe wat I've did last night. I didn't like him nor wanna talk to him.
It felt so wired in that class and I usually spoke a lot in that class and now I started not to.
2 months passed by and he wanted to go out with me but I would always tell him I'm not ready to date or I'm still hung up on my ex but he still waited for me to be ready.
We talked for 2 months before making it official. He asked me out on January 8 .
I always been bad lucked with guys so this one I was scared to give my all. I wasn't really into it like he was but after a couple months I grew to love him. He was my everything, my best friend, just my world and I was his. Not a day goes by that I didn't get a good morning / goodnight text. He made everyday worth being happy for. He made me realize a lot in myself. We shared everything. I use to give him money and he did the same to me, we use to cook each other lunch, just simply take care of each other. Everyday was a happy day for me and him. But u might be wondering it seems like u guys love each other a lot , y would u guys break up? Well I have a lot of insecurity because of my past relationships, I never thought I was good enough or pretty enough to be his gf. He told me stop thinking like that Cus I'm the only women he sees and loves. I met his family. He showed me off to the world. Say I was his queen ect. He motivated me to do better in the sports I play. We filled out scholarships for each other. Motivated each other in everything we did. He have put up with a lot I've done. He was tierd of me putting ppl in our relationship, assuming he was doing things behind my back( cheating) which he never did nor talk to someone different but I was so insecure. He got fed up and left me and now I've realize what I've lost. I've lost my motivator, best friend, my happiness. I pray everyday we get back together. We've been broken up for a week now and it feels like a year. My room is full of things he bought me. Sometimes he only had enough money for a haircut but he gave me that money so I can eat and he don't get money often. I just wanna show him that my insecurities are gone and my assumption too. Just us breaking up made me realize how much I needed to change but I told him I would always change and I never did but the time I really changed he doesn't believed me because I've said it a bunch of times. I would like for u guys to pray for us to work things out because ever since I lost him, I've lost my happiness, my motivation, and most importantly the love of my life


       


 

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Jonny Boy

January 15, 2015


Just go get laid, friend!


     


Jamie

January 15, 2015


Wow I was looking for this, thought I was the only one and yes my ex broke up with me for same reason but I dunno if she realized that but I just want her to be happy no matter what she thinks of me.I miss you


     


Jessica

June 29, 2014


Wow this is so relatable, same name and all! And it's been a week too!


     


Alina

May 28, 2014


I know what you are going through, i fucked up big time too. I was with an ex for three years but close to graduation i knew he was not the person for me and i broke uo with him. Afterwards my priorities were so fucked up that i started doing really stupid shit. As by miracle i met a man who i would love to spend the rest of my life with. Unfortunatly, when he saw all the things i have done before him, he wanted to leave. I eventually convinced him i would change but our relationship after that was never the same. I kept wanting him to propose, stregthen our bond but he was scared. During our relationship i kelt making mistakes because we have such different characters. Well he had enough and left and now i feel like the biggest failure because i have lost the only man i had give my all to. I dont want anyone else. I want to change because life without him is dull. I cry every night i spend alone and pray we get back together. So i wish you all the best and hope that things will work out for you.


     


Tony Bologna

May 21, 2014


You'll find someone else! Just takes time, but you need to allow it to happen. GO out with your friends!