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Estf VLM

March 22, 2016 @ (200 Davisville ave)

I decided to write about how is my recently break up going. I know many of you are having the same situation as me, therefore I will explain how is my situation so you can understand me.

A year ago, 2015, I started dating a guy from a different culture, religion, way of thinking and more. We connected really well, at first it was like wonderland everyday, we talked for hours, went out, laughed, and more.. It felt like a real relationship full of confidence, truth, and more of it we respected each other. We did so many things together, I even started to learn his language, I changed so many things for him, The first 7 moths together were so perfect, I never though that he will change from one day to another.. He stated changing day by day, sometimes i felt like he was so bored to be with me, but other times i felt like he was so happy, I was so confused, even tho i never told him what i felt, he sometimes noticed i guess but never said a word. There were some days he came to me saying he wants to try a night with another girl, i swear he stabbed me every time he said that, but i couldnâ€™t do anything, all i did was laugh like it wasnâ€™t a big deal but it was. I hide so many times how i really felt because i didnâ€™t want him to worry or something. I remember even he told me he could thrown me if I do something wrong, and many times he told me that his friends will always come first than me, I mean I was his girlfriend right?, why would he say stuff like that.. It was just too much but i never payed attention because I did not want to lose him, and I did anyways.

Anyways, a week before he broke up with me, he was acting so weird, I knew there was something but like always I didnâ€™t pay attention. Indeed there was something, on a Tuesday, Jan 12, 2016, at 8pm he came to me and said he wanted to talk to me about something, there.. I knew he wanted to break up, my world just fall apart when he said it, he gave me some crazy reasons and I just played along. I couldnâ€™t believe what I was hearing.. Well after that, 3 days after I went to a party, and I remember i got so drunk, all because I found out he was already talking to another girl. IT BROKE MEâ€¦

A week after, he came again to me but not as he wanted to go back, he just wanted to make sure of some stuff, but neither of us could help it so we kissed, everything came back to HAPPINESS, only it was NOT.! He said I canâ€™t control myself around you but I want to still being like this, only not as a relationship, I first said alright letâ€™s try, but to be honest it wasnâ€™t enough for me, he was like that with me but also playing with another girl, so i tried to stopped it and until now i couldnâ€™t. I am still in the same situation, i feel like a stupid sometimes, thinking that he would change, but no, it is worse. he still is playing with that other girl, and I am still hurting.

I will never regret any of this, the only thing i regret is how blind I am.

Linket

March 05, 2016 @ (school)

Tags: bad breakup

Ok before I start let me just say that the name i use for this person is his role play name not his real one.

We started dating around the secound week of September. We had a little fight about something so after school i texted him and was like:
"What did I do?!" and sky texted back:
"Look i really like you and i was trying to figure out how to tell you...I didn't mean for it to go like this"
The next day i met up with him to talk about it and from there we got together.
5 months later we were in a full on relationship. Everyone thought that we will be together for a long time and me and Sky even said that we are an amazing couple.The day right before our breakup we were talking about our future and how we are gonna be together. The next day he was mad or confused about something so i asked him about it. Turns out he was in love with another girl that he found online. I broke up with him...it hurt so badly to let him go...to watch him walk away. I still cry to this day. I just hope that girl that he fell in love with...can love him as much as i did.

Sadperson1

February 16, 2016 @ (Romania)

Tags: Bad breakup

I loved this girl so much that now it hurts i was woth her for 3 years we were fighting from time to time because she had a temper and i was always the nice person in the relation but recently our problems greBecause my brother is living with us no actually she lives with me and my brother wich he never complained about her even though she doesnt pay rent or pay but he complains about how messy he is and non organised he is and she hates it so she gets nervous on meand we fight i told her that i will move out with you when the time is ready and live just me and her and i promised her that but ihad second thoughts i can not leave my brother for a girl that she doesnt like him if she really loves me she would understand and wait at least till my brother finishes his university and after we have plenty of time together she wanted to move immediately so we fought almost all the time so i broke up with her like 1 month ago but i cant stop thinking about jer cuz i ttuely loved her and she was the worst girlfriend i ever had wich is i cant explain i jsut want to move on why i can't

Sam

February 05, 2016 @ (Malaysia)

Tags: Breakups that hurt alot

Lets just take this as day 1, a healing stage, a blessing in disguise, making me stronger in time to come.
And so I just broke up with the love of my life, and this was happening again. I lost once, and now I lost another. What more could I sincerely ask for, when I had everything in the world to begin with. She's the first person that comes to my mind when I wake up, she's the girl I would be more than willing to buy gifts for. She meant the world to me and I had no qualms about anything. I was happy. I was really happy with my life and I didn't dare to ask for more. I didn't want to. There wasn't a need to. I only knew that I was in love. Deeply in love.
I am 19, and I know that there are cases in different pockets of the world that have been through this ordeal, probably much worse than mine. After all it's been 15 months only, nowhere close to marriages that have lasted for years (what a bitter moment for people like us). While I know we kind of ended on a good note and we could still be friends in the coming years, how am I supposed to treat her as a good friend, when I always saw her as my coming wife?
My mind's in a mess now, and Chinese New Year is around the corner. I really hope I recover soon enough to hide it from everyone else. I don't want my loved ones to be upset for me, I need to stay strong. I will be strong.

And all I need is strength in me.
I need you to be with me, god.

Abby

February 01, 2016 @ (USA)

Tags: Bad breakup

We were together for 4 years .. Everything was great. Till his friend came along and he changed for the worst. All in a month. He's clearly lost now. I found out he cheated because the girl posted on his Facebook. If he can't let you see his phone he's cheating... If he can't let people know you're together he's cheating .. If he gets disrespectful he's cheating... If you break down and cry and he has no emotion he's cheating. My gut told me all of that but I didn't want to accept it. The day before I found out he wiped my tears away and told me we'd be ok. Didn't text or talk to me at all that night. Then I wake up to the post on Facebook. It hurts but it's important to realize that was his choice and it clearly wasn't meant to be.

Enoth

January 28, 2016 @ (Dubai)

Tags: LDR

It was a long distance relationship that lasted for three years. I was too excited about meeting her in April for the first time after the stuff we shared together. I loved her a lot, and she was my motivation. I can say my life was turned upside down; I just didn't want to be an ordinary boyfriend for her, I mastered three languages, I became top of my class, and I was accepted for almost a position. I wanted to just do more with myself so that I can be worthy of her before I propose. Anyway, then three months ago, she developed a habit of not talking/texting me for days, and the reason was she doesn't want to interrupt my studies. Then, she would start meaningless arguments. Until, one day, she suddenly started saying that I never was any good for her, and she owes me nothing. That was right after she graduated, and she never talked ever since, deleting my numbers, every other thing except facebook. Then, I woke up one day about a month later, seeing her sharing a post of a quote "it's unlikely for a girl with high standard like me to date a piece of sh*t". I just liked her post, and I understood the message. It didn't take long for me to remove her before she would have done herself. Though, I would sometimes stare at my whatsapp screen on her number, waiting to see her status changing to online so that I know she is alright. It gives me some remedy, and as a matter of fact I am thankful because I was put on the right track because of her, I still owe her something, however.

Andy

January 10, 2016 @ (Miami)

Tags: Bad breakup

My breakup started on the eve of Christmas me and my girlfriend had been dating for over 6 years. We were meant to be High school sweat hearts. We loved each other talked on the phone every night before going to bed and never really got bored of each other. One day at work I got a text from her saying she wants to break up because she doesn't love me anymore. She told me sorry this is what I want. In shock I couldn't believe it I taught it was a prank she wouldn't pick up my calls or text. As I left work driving fast as hell to her house. I banged on her window crying asking to please talk to me she had the lights on and then quickly turned them off. At that point her step dad came out angry as hell screaming at me telling me he doesn't care what's going on between us if I don't leave his front porch he would call the cops and arrest me. Never cheated, never did anything bad, knew the family for 6 years even went on trips with them. Sad thing too I was going to purpose to her, since then close to being a month she hasn't gotten in contact with me and deleted me from all social media. Moral is I haven't gotten over it I probably won't I will always love her but only wishing that person the best and hoping they get what they are looking for is the only way to somehow over come something like this.

Sergeidragunov45

November 30, 2015 @ (pegasusland )

Tags: muffin sushimuis clisje neko-chan broken heartache manuel muurbloem jason gregory house

About nine months ago, my girlfriend and I broke up. We had a relationship for about 4 years, but it felt like we knew eachother much longer because we saw eachother almost every day and we hardly ever had a fight. My (ex) girlfriend was a beautiful indonesian girl with mesmerizing dark brown eyes and the prettiest smile ive ever seen before. we had a lot in common and I love her like crazy ( i still do).The reason for our breakup was because of the fact that my parents are very traditional (im chinese btw) and strict. So that means that I am not allowed to date a girl that wasnt from the same root as mine and we are raised to have maximum respect for elder people, especially parents. In the beginning when we just started dating, my parents acted cool towards our relationship. that was because they didnt thought it was serious and they saw it more like friendship. But later when i told them that we are really boyfriend and girlfriend, they became mad and wanted me to find a chinese girl. I didnt listen to them and I Always had an argument with my parents because I love that girl so much. This went on for several years until that one moment i've had it all enough of all that fighting with my parents. Later ive been thinking about breaking up with her but i couldnt do it, i love her to much to lose her. I said before that im chinese and chinese people have a lot of respect for parents. so I told my parents: This is enough, I had it with all this fighting. I'll do whatever you want and break up with her''. This was the toughest I had to do in my life and when i saw her and didnt even told her in person. I broke up with her per text, because i couldnt watch her cry and suffer. I thought that i would get over her and that i would be one line again with my parents, but i was so miserably wrong. I still had arguments with my parents about other stuff and this went from bad to worse. plus i dont have my girlfriend to talk to about this stuff and support me. i thought that it would get better in the future but i was wrong again. its still the same it Always has been the same and now Ive lost the love of my life. I think about her everyday and i just cant forget her. everytime when I lay in bed i pretend that my cushion is her and that i hug her while I sleep and I even dream about her almost every night. I know that i sound like a complete idiot right now but i really still suffer. She moved on with her life and I still pretend in my imagination that I still have her. maybe i became mad or maybe im just an idiot. but one things for sure, this wound hasnt been healed a little bit and it wont be in a long time. it probably never will. but one thing is for sure, I still love her and I hope she will find happiness in the future, with me or without me.

Myfault

September 04, 2015 @ (Coachella Valley)

Tags: dumped

I met this girl through a weekly meeting that talked about mental illness. I saw her beautiful, delicate pale skin compliment her dark hair. She was with another guy who I thought was her boyfriend. I was instantly enticed by her looks. Her silence was soft and spoke with such force that it shook me off my feet. I felt nervous and she did not even flinch to look at me while I talked. Damn I did not have a car at the time so I had to take the bus home. I missed my stop all because I was fantasizing about me being with her. Then as I looked back at my stop I came to the realization that I would probably never get a chance to even hangout with her. I fell hard just by her looks and it was not that she was a ten it was just her. Yeah, she is beautiful but her face oh her face just captured me like the moon captures the moth. weeks passed and I did not see her because she was busy with college. luckily I befriended her friend who was actually just childhood friends. I liked him alot and thanks to knowing him I got a chance at getting closer to this girl. who's name I did not know until he told me. By pure luck I got a chance to finally be alone with her and as I spoke I began to see that she looked at me differently. As she spoke i only fell deeper and deeper into her sweet eyes. we stayed up all night in th back of her car and i thought that maye I did have a chance. And I did. we fell in love but it woudnt last. She would break up with me for trivial reasons. later on I figured out she was insecure. New years eve we had a huge fight,I fel unappreciated and I finally put an end to it. She came back that same night which wass surprising because it was always me who had to but I was not. She said she would change because she actually loved me and she had never felt that way. Change she did some how she became even more perfect but I messed it up. still hurt from the past I treated her bad and I began to think I no longer needed her. I was a bad boyfriend for 6 months and she finally left. She no longer cared for me. And it is true that you only miss them once you let them go. I realized my mistakes and I tried for three months I was exasperated and exhausted but I kept trying. She was hurt. She did not trust me. I know I messed up and she has every right to leave. I would give her all the time in the world and I would still be here waiting for her. this was the first week of fall semester in college. it fees so different. today was the day I finally let go and I am so hurt I cant go to sleep Im crying and I dont know why. I hve been through some messed up shit in my life but even that did not cause me to cry. I cry because she is truly amazing and actually wanted me but I broke her. I have one last plan. I am finally going to give her space. I will work on myself and do my best to try and get a date with her. Sadly she is moving to either New york or san fransico in a year. I may never have another chance, sadly she said she would stay here with me until I finished with college. She is the type of girl to get over guys quick. she told me she would be over me in a week. Sadly I would be with her right now if in those 6 months I would tell her to leave me alone I Instead apologized and told her how much she meant to me.

D

August 24, 2015 @ (India)

Tags: So sorry!

We were close friends... but eventually friendship turned to love..he loved me soo much..so did I ..after school we got together.. we met once every month, spoke every day...he sent me his pics.. everything was perfect...until now..just a few weeks back in july 2015... i sent him a collage with our pics and a message..after that i was having my important university examination ( Medicine) so i could not call or text him much..but still i felt that he was avoiding me.. in the midst i tried texting and calling him a zillion times... he never answered my calls..neither did he respond to my text messages... but i was not ready to believe that he would cheat on me... i contacted our school friends..i mean we all were pretty close.. i told them that he was doing this..they told me that they have also stopped getting information from him.. i was alarmed.. they said don't worry and don't spoil your exams..thankfully in the midst of so much anxiety i was able to do my most important exams in life..... and he had told one of my friends who called him upon hearing my complains..the truth behind his avoidance.. but she refused to tell me.. because she was scared of me spoiling my exams..i understood that something was terribly wrong..i waited..yesterday at last my exams got over... she called me at 11:00pm... it was a conference call..three friends... she began.. i listened... his parents saw the collage... his mom cried...and stopped talking to him for two days..his dad still doesn't speak to him... he was beaten... they feel that this is not a serious relationship..and that their son is giving me false hopes..iam a doctor..he is studying for Bcom... his mom said all these.. her parents will never agree..you are playing with her feelings..you will never get settled before her..allow her to live... :'( and made him promise upon Holy Quran .. that he won't speak to me or see me again.. he has decided to lead a bachelor life... :( i cried bitterly... i was helpless..so was he... if he had cheated on me..i could at least hate him.. but we still love each other soo much and yet....i spent sleepless nights..i can't cope....we could not hear each others voices for one last time.. :( ... I don't wanna be any one else's but his... and yes,,, i will wait... i will wait for him... i won't let him go... let me ask my parents when it's time.... the rest I leave to God..... My God had never disappointed me... and I believe in him.. he won't disappoint me any further... Cuz it's our first love.. and I want it to be our first and only love..... <3